I've been feeling out of sorts all day today. Annoyed, on edge, and just plain pissy I'm not used to experiencing this state so it's been an interesting dance to observe within.
Part of me is very concerned. What is wrong? What can I fix? What do I do? On and on it goes.....with increased urgency. A few years ago I might have made a list of things to do to shift me from this state of discomfort. Perhaps that was helpful at the time, but something within knows to do that now would simply be distracting myself from simply allowing myself to sit in and experience this flavorful, multi-faceted soup of AAuuuggg :-) I allow myself to breathe deeply into this time of "not quite where I want to be", the feeling of living in a different space but physical reality isn't there yet, and the experience of grieving what no longer feels organic. The betwixt and between.
Not gonna lie.....not a fan of this particular state of being, but I still honor it with respect and attention. I figure it's the least I can do since I've been running from it for years :-0